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Be encouraged today by her words and heart. I know I am.
Katie Reid is the Tightly Wound Woman, a recovering perfectionist who fumbles to receive and extend grace in everyday moments. She delights in her hubby and four children and their life in ministry. Studying God’s Word, singing/songwriting, speaking, writing, photography and heartfelt conversations are a few of her favorite things.
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The Stage of Self-Sufficiency
For as long as I can remember I have been a performer.
As a child I fondly remember turning the light above the piano just right so that it was a spotlight of sorts for my stirring renditions of Linda Ronstadt ballads.
I belted my heart out and danced uninhibited performing for the audience. The audience was sometimes made up of a family member or two, but often I sang and danced solo with no one really there.
Oh, I imagined the audience was there; a full house, impressed by the talent oozing from my dramatic, Broadway-wanna-a-be self.
Always performing, but not always on stage.
Looking the part, acting the part, striving and driving to meet and exceed expectations; that’s me.
And maybe with all this performing I have accepted these faulty stage directions…
Do whatever you can to keep the criticism away, or at least at bay.
Win the crowd over; wow them with your dazzling ability.
If the audience approves then you have been successful and are deemed valuable.
Then he enters…He with the lead role.
He is the lead, director and producer; a powerhouse trinity.
He shines brightly in all his natural ability- it’s supernatural actually.
He messes with my inspiration. He reveals my motives. He has pages of notes to hand out to this rising starlet.
In love He redirects me back to grace and reminds me that I do not have to perform to earn His approval and affections.
This underlying question takes center stage “What do I do if I am not performing?”
I am told that I do not have to perform because it is already finished.
I do not have to earn love, for it is freely given.
This performer feels glad but somewhat lost in this reality.
I don’t have to perform to be accepted, loved and considered worthy?
I don’t know how to live daily in this mysterious grace.
I am pacing on the inside, restless, as I try to absorb this truth.
I need His help not more trying on my part.
I am caught in a performance trap and I long to be set free.
I’ve been trying to keep the Law in order to be made perfect. But (Hebrews 7:19a) reveals “…the Law made nothing perfect.”
The Law throws a spotlight on our sin and reveals our need for the Perfect One.
“…a man is not justified by the works of the Law but through faith in Christ Jesus, even we have believed in Christ Jesus, that we may be justified by faith in Christ, and not by the works of the Law; since by the works of the Law shall no flesh be justified” (Galatians 2:16).
God meets us in our weakness and sets us free from the trap door of Legalism. He is able to lead us out as we follow His loving direction.
We shine brightest when we belt the tune of His grace. We impact the watching world when we bow to His Lordship and acknowledge His finished work on the Cross.
In what ways are you caught in the performance trap?
Take a moment to ask God for His help. He is more than able to free us and loose the chains that hold us back from accepting the gift of His grace.
Forgive us for thinking that our value is based on what we do for You. Help us to remember that we have value because of what You did for us. Help us to lay down our self-sufficiency and live in the grace that You freely give. This grace cost You everything, forgive us for overlooking this extravagant gift. Thank You that You are able to help us. Thank You that You are the Sufficient, Perfect and Sovereign One.
In Jesus’ Name,